What's worse, living when you want to die or dying while you're fighting to live?
I’m cold and alone and I’m dead. There’s no air in my lungs. My chest is as cold and hollow as a cave on a snowcapped mountain side. My heart no longer beats there.
Frigid winds whistle through my ribs and the sadness inside me weeps like my favorite tree.
Days ago, I met with death face to face.
The mirror, our meeting place. My two darkened green eyes stared deeply into hers.
I tilted my head to the side. She did too.
“It’s time,” I whispered. “It’s time,” she whispered.
And with that I turned away from her, the woman in the mirror who knew all of my secrets and all of my pain. I walked away from her and yet we’d never been closer than we were in that moment.
The inner struggle was over.
No more arguing with the woman in the mirror.
No more arguing with myself.
The choice was made.
She was the victor. Or was I?
That was the day Riah Winter died.
Kathryn lives in her small East Texas hometown with her family. She 's a music infused writer and self-proclaimed book junkie. When she isn't listening to music, writing or reading you'll probably find her watching her favorite sport, UFC.
Kathryn is also an anti-bullying advocate and avid supporter of mental-illness and suicide awareness.
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What occurs after a loved one passes away? What happens to family and friends in the aftermath of such tragedy and most especially what happens to that loved one? Letters Written in White is a shockingly relatable, supremely unique, impossibly heartbreaking, and incredibly touching look into all those left in the wake of traumatic loss.
Depression. A painful, overwhelming, and debilitating condition that affects millions of people, mostly women, all over the world. A condition in which those that suffer with the disorder often endure in silence. Even more common are those that are not taken seriously, those that are told to "get over it," are underestimated, or are even misdiagnosed. You may not be able to see depression, but it is far from an "imaginary" illness and so much more than just feeling a little down. Depression is a serious mental illness that, if left untreated, can be crippling or worse yet, life threatening. There are not many authors brave enough to address this condition in a serious and truthful manner but Kathryn Perez sheds light on depression in an honest and commendable way that not only examines how this monster can affect your everyday life but also how it can affect you and your loved ones after it takes it.
As the author's note says, Riah is in all of us. If you don't find a single thought, experience, or feeling that you can relate to in this book I would say that I envy you, but really I think there is a much higher probability that you may just be fooling yourself a bit. We may not all suffer depression, we may not take the things in our lives that bring us the greatest joy for granted on a daily basis, but I think it is safe to say that each and every one of us gets overwhelmed at times, bogged down by all of the tiny details, by all of the directions we are constantly being pulled in, by all of the insignificant things, that we can't always see the good, the pure, and the joy that surrounds us and affects our mood, our attitude, even our overall outlook on life. If you take just one thing from this story, of which there are a plethora to choose, it is to remember. Remember the good in your life, remember what is important to you and always put those things first, remember what truly brings you happiness and brightens your day and make those things a priority. Don't let the darkness overshadow all the light, don't let even the tiniest moments of happiness be taken from you. And of course always remember that if you need help, never be afraid to ask, be it a friend, a family member, or a professional, no concern is too small, no feeling insignificant.
While I was thoroughly engrossed and invested in this story, enraptured by a surprising tie to one the author's previous books (which just so happens to be one of my very favorites), Therapy, and begging for a time in which Riah and her family can finally find peace, I felt that the book wrapped up way too quickly for my liking with an ending that seems to out of nowhere. Although I appreciate the touching real life stories that serve as a reminder that we are not alone in our feelings, whether they are fleeting thoughts or constant demons, that fortify your spirit, with an ending at the 65% mark I feel like there was still plenty of time for a more hashed out and fulfilling ending and wish that the end of Riah's story had not seemed rushed.
Letters Written in White is an intensely powerful and agonizing story of death, depression, and regret. It is also an important, revitalizing story about life and how we choose to live it, about everyday problems and how we choose to deal with them, and about feelings and how we choose to express them. Kathryn Perez, a proven master of emotion, strikes again with beautiful, poetic prose that will make you cry and ache and self-reflect and strive for a life without remorse or regret. A real eye opener and a potential game changer for any and all readers.
*complimentary copy provided by author in exchange for an honest review
Ratings: 4 Stars