I need you, Ava.
I am desperate. For you. For touch. For a kiss. For the scrape of your hand down my stomach. For the slide of your lips across my hipbone. The sweep of your thigh against mine in the dulcet, drowning darkness. For the warm huff of your breath on my skin and the wet suck of your mouth around me and the building pressure of need reaching release...I am mad with need.
Wild with it.
I cannot have you. I have lost you, as I have lost myself.
And so I go in search. Of myself, and thus the man who might return to you, and take you in his arms.
I loathe each of the thousands of miles between us, but I cannot wish them away, for I hope at the end of my journey I shall find you. Or rather, find myself, and thus…you. Myself, and thus us.
I am taking the long way home, Ava.
I’m losing my mind, and I don’t know how to stop it. I shouldn’t be writing to you, but I am. I’m friendless, loveless, and lifeless. You’re out there somewhere, and still you’re all I really have. I hate my reliance and dependence on you, emotionally and otherwise, and that reliance is something I’m coming to recognize. I hate that I can’t hate you as much as I want to. I hate that I still love you so much.
I hate that there’s no clear solution to our conundrum. Even if we could forgive each other, what then?
I hate you, Christian. I really do.
But most of all, I don’t.
Complicatedly (still) yours,
THE LONG WAY HOME is the story of a married couple, Christian and Ava, both writers, as they cope with the loss of their son and the damage that loss causes to their marriage. This moving story, alternately heartbreaking and heartwarming, is the first in a brand-new contemporary romance series by bestselling author Jasinda Wilder.
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New York Times and USA Today bestselling author Jasinda Wilder is a Michigan native with a penchant for titillating tales about sexy men and strong women. When she’s not writing, she’s probably shopping, baking, or reading.
Some of her favorite authors include Nora Roberts, JR Ward, Sherrilyn Kenyon, Liliana Hart and Bella Andre.
She loves to travel and some of her favorite vacations spots are Las Vegas, New York City and Toledo, Ohio.
You can often find Jasinda drinking sweet red wine with frozen berries and eating a cupcake.
Jasinda is represented by Kristin Nelson of the Nelson Literary Agency.
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Review by Michelle:
Okay, so one look at the blurb and you know you are in for a painful story and a long and bumpy ride with The Long Way Home. What you may not know, is just how quickly and thoroughly you will be affected. Within mere pages I was totally and completely gutted by this story. But that's just the beginning, The Long Way Home is a story that makes you feel so deeply it will consume your every thought and every waking moment and leave you absolutely reeling.
A distinctive narrative consisting mainly of letters and journal entries giving a unique perspective on scattered thoughts and experiences making up the whole of this tumultuous story unlike any I've experienced before. Told from three different perspectives to give all possible sides to the story, we switch between Christian's inner thoughts, to Ava's, to third person. All of which I found kept me intimately connected to each character in their pain and their sorrow as well as their inner turmoil and their struggle to heal and kept me thoroughly enthralled in their intensely gripping and excruciating story every step of the way.
Beginning with all the usual hardships and drifting apart of new parenthood, we are struck senseless with the unthinkable right out of the gate leaving you sobbing and breathless, angry and grief stricken right from the start. A heartbreaking, soul crushing story of loss after loss after loss and the fight to overcome one in order to possibly salvage something from another, something that doesn't need to be broken and perhaps with just a little communication, effort, and commitment from both sides, might possibly be repaired once again.
You will, quite possibly, alternately love and hate these two characters and even simultaneously love and hate them, but you will also feel for them, root for them, want to fight for them, want to give up on them, want to hug them, and strangle them, and hit them upside their heads until they are able to open their eyes to see what they have been missing all this time, until they swallow their pride, and hopefully finally reach out for the help that they so desperately need from one another. You are guaranteed to be turned upside down and inside out by the emotion and the nature of the narration of this story, but it will be one ride you will be begging to stay on indefinitely and take over and over again.
I have never been quite so impressed with two particularly separate and opposing viewpoints. These two characters are complete opposites all the way and the execution of these two utterly different and distinct points of view was flawless and remarkable. Often when getting both perspectives it can feel a bit repetitive with a few glaring differences in personality, but largely still seeming to be told in the same overall voice. This is not the case with this narrative. Ava and Christian each definitely have a mind and a voice all their own making for one heck of a fascinating and compelling read.
After the wringer we are put through for most of the book, the story does stop pretty abruptly making you want to throw your reading device of choice right against the wall. This sudden ending isn't necessarily a cliffhanger, but it does definitely leave you with an abundance of unanswered questions which will just about drive you crazy. Although I am psyched about the direction the next book is headed in , I most definitely feel like I need to know more about the resolution of this story before moving along to the next.
An altogether emotional and extraordinary story. The Long Way Home is like no other story I've encountered in both plotline and storytelling yet ranks right up there with some of the most captivating and touching. If you crave something different and love to feel, not just angst or joy or even anger, but just about every emotion you can imagine, this is one you do not want to miss.
*complimentary copy provided by author for an honest review
Rating: 5 Stars